MSH. I discovered im a sub, in January of this year, after reading multiple books.I'm married and husband is not interested in becoming a dom, we are also having difficulties and may be divorcing in the next year. I found a dom who trained me. I am struggling with this new identity, and I am looking for a permanent Dom. I have found fun fake Doms but not very many real ones. I need one that can commit to me the way i do him. I am a bbw losing weight and am committed to losing the rest of my weight and even getting plastic surgery at the end of my journey. I have lost 120 lbs in 1 1/2 years, so I have some lose skin.
I am looking for a Dom that is dominant yet gentle. I have discovered I am a true baby girl. I don't like extreme pain but do want to try things that come with this lifestyle, as long as I have safewords, and a Dom who can be honest and provide a safe environment for me to learn in. I am very respectful and naturally submissive in my personality. However I am assertive in my professional life. I'm a registered nurse and writer.